Day 601

Today was easier than yesterday. The fears ebbed and flowed, but I was able to dismiss them almost as quickly as they came. You have no place here. You are not serving me. You are not serving Benjamin. You are not serving my family. You may go. Michael was right; this feels like another diagnosis all over again,… Continue Reading Day 601

Day 467

Benjamin began his third cycle of long term maintenance today. He woke up calmly and contently. He did not complain when he couldn’t eat breakfast. He did not complain when I placed numbing cream and dressing on his port site. He sat quietly in the car, resolute. His silence concerned me a little, but I bit my… Continue Reading Day 467