Day 760/132

“Stand up straight and realize who you are, that you tower over your circumstances. You are a child of God. Stand up straight.” ~Maya Angelou These words saved me today. When I felt myself start to crumble, instead I stood a little straighter. Now is not the time. There is work to be done. Benjamin’s… Continue Reading Day 760/132

Day 756/128

The construction crew of the new hospital research building worked all night long last night, pouring the concrete slab on the top floor. Every time Benjamin woke up to urinate, or something beeped, or someone came in to check vitals, I’d glance outside and see men in hardhats dangling from harnesses or climbing up ladders,… Continue Reading Day 756/128

Day 753/125

It was still dark this morning when Benjamin woke up wincing. He said he’d had a bad dream. I asked him to tell me about it, he said he forgot, and went right back to sleep. I looked at the foggy sky, barely pink with the sunrise, and told myself if I could make out the Skyway,… Continue Reading Day 753/125

Day 752/124

and everything seems to have gone terribly wrong that can but one breath at a time is an acceptable plan she tells herself and the air is still there  ~ani difranco   It seems that as soon as we have a moment to exhale, it’s time to take another deep breath. This morning Benjamin felt… Continue Reading Day 752/124

Day 751/123

Benjamin feels better today than he did yesterday, and his labs continue to trend in the right direction. This is enough for today. Slow, steady healing. We were up several times throughout the night, responding to pain, or the need for the bathroom, or beeps from the IV pole. Benjamin found it easier to rise… Continue Reading Day 751/123

Day 750/122

The goal for the day was to help Benjamin feel comfortable. I believe we are getting there. As the day comes to a close, I’m grateful that he feels better now than he did this morning. I am hopeful we are entering a healing, peaceful weekend. The pattern of the last few days repeated itself,… Continue Reading Day 750/122