on I had a bit of a personal breakthrough last night. As I was refilling Benji’s pill box, I counted ahead to next week and realized I would be a full four 6MP pills short for the month. I felt the familiar panic rise up within me and I silenced it right away. I did the… Continue Reading Day 568
on Benji has been feeling great this week. He is breaking out on his cheeks, which is either the responsibility of his medicines or this insane heat. His skin has always been heat and sweat sensitive; chemo combined with 100 degree weather makes him drenched nearly every day. I continue to believe that sweat is one… Continue Reading Day 566
on Benjamin climbed into our bed this morning, where he stayed, sleeping soundly, until after 11am. This was a little disconcerting, and unlike him. When he climbed in he said he didn’t feel well, so I wasn’t sure what to expect when he finally woke up. I was grateful that he seemed happy and very refreshed. But… Continue Reading Day 546
on The effects of last week’s steroid pulse still linger. I brought both boys lunch today, and when I saw Benji’s teacher, she gave me “the look” that said he’d been a handful this morning. Her expression softened my heart. When his intensity gets to me, it’s easier to take it personally. When it gets to… Continue Reading Day 505
on Benji’s sore throat returned this morning, but only for a few minutes. He felt better as the morning went on, and by drop-off time he was right as rain. The steroid pulse is still showing its side effects, particularly impulsive behavior and profuse sweating. I keep reminding Benji the sweating is good. It means he’s flushing… Continue Reading Day 473
on In the new normal I’ve been sculpting, Tuesdays are my days to work on all things cancer related. Today, after a gorgeous blue morning bridge walk and two school drop-offs, I came home ready to get to work. Before moving forward, we have a chapter to close. I mixed up an oil blend for clarity, concentration… Continue Reading Day 341